BigdogTX

"....The army that you needed - to lead a certain way - now, don't look behind you - cause nothing's here to stay - Out cast from the shadows - drawn within yourself - where no one else can find you - lost within yourself - and as your breath slips away - i have to say - could it ever have been right - Banished to extinction - a prayer for us all - transparent and demented - waiting for night to call - unearth the vile of anger - inside surveillance begins - abide the urge you want - to breath from within...."

Front Line Assembly - existance

So I've been having some pain in my mouth for the past few days where they removed my impacted wisdom tooth. Went in to the dentist this morning and it turns out to be just a bunch of food stuck down there. So glad it wasn't a dry socket or some shit.

I've made up my mind to start on some of the 'things-that-I've-been-wanting-to-do-but-put-off-because-i'm-a-procrastinating-bastard'.

First on the list...fix my computer. It's been down for a couple months. I initially thought it was the motherboard; so I replaced it but it's still having the same problems. Need to try a couple things. Might have to replace the video card.

Next on the list is joining my local rock climbing gym. I've been wanting to do that forever but just never get around to it.

And finally, once I get my computer up and running I plan on looking into creating some electronic music. Want to buy a keyboard and start putting together my own studio. This has been a dream of mine since high school. If anyone has some pointers for me as to what equipment to start out with or just some advise for a newbie...it would be much appreciated. I won't be able to buy any gear until after I get moved; but you gotta start somewhere.

I've just come to a point in my life where I realize that the only thing keeping me from achieving my dreams is me.....

There's nothing like a hangover to remind me why I avoid whisky. Somehow last night it seemed like a good idea though.

After a not so exciting night at work I met up with prayingmanic  and we headed to a pub on Dickson called Mickey Finn's. Pretty cool environment. I don't know if it's a spot I'd hang out at regularly; but it was a cool change of place. It didn't help that the bartender didn't know how to pour Guiness.

Stayed there for awhile chatting then headed up to Big Daddy's where about 15 people from work were hanging out to 'celebrate' my friend Casey's last day at work. (Bastard's moving back to Seattle). Not that we're glad to see him go....just wanted to show him a good time.

Anyhow...I hope I didn't scare off prayingmanic  with my friends from work. They can be alot to handle. Especially since they always seem to be drunk if they're not at work; but who can blame us...we work for Wal-Mart Inc. for fuck's sake.

So I called into work today. Still slight bleeding and swelling in my mouth. I probably could have worked through it but I decided to err on the side of caution and just take it easy today. It's been forever since I've called in sick to work...this is nice :P

Well as I figured, yesterday wasn't as bad as I made it out to be in my mind; and I've had hardly any pain throughout the whole thing. There's really no point in me even taking painkillers at this point. :)

 I was so bad yesterday though. I had myself stressed out thinking the worst.

My Dad offered to come with me to the dentist to make sure I was able to drive afterwards and pick up my meds and such. So we got there around noon and I sat in the lobby cracking jokes to Dad to relieve the tension. They called my name after only 10 min of waiting and a nurse led me back to one of the rooms.

The nurse who gave me my painkiller shots was incredibly nice. She really put my mind at ease. Once my mouth was numb the dentist came in and probed around to make sure I couldn't feel anything. He had to give me about 10 more shots and wasn't quite as gentle as the nurse was. I made sure to mention to them beforehand that I have a high tolerance to alchohol and drugs so they'd make sure to use the novocaine liberally. I haveliquid_phoenix  to thank for bringing this to my attention. I didn't feel a damn thing the whole operation, which is the way I like it. It took maybe 10 seconds for him to pull each of my three 'normal' wisdom teeth. The impacted tooth took around 10-15 min. Seemed like an eternity...and it's really the only part of my mouth that was sore afterwards. They had to make an incision and drill the tooth some to get it out.

Throughout the whole operation the dentist and the nurse who was helping him had a sort of ongoing stand-up routine going. It sort of helped take my mind off the situation; but after a while the dentist's corny sense of humor started to get on my nerves (no pun intenended).  I actually was able to watch alot of the operation because I could see myself in the reflection of the dentist's glasses. Kinda creepy, kinda cool.

In the end it took maybe an hour from the time I arrived until I left; and it wasn't even close to the nightmare that I had imagined.

The rest of the day I spent on the couch watching T.V. and season one of  'Sex and the City'.

I did have sort of an ordeal getting my meds though. When they ran my credit card at the dentist office they charged me way more than they should have accidently. So they voided that charge and put the correct charge through. Well apparently when that happens, it takes awhile for the bank to sort things out; so when I went to get my meds it wouldn't accept the card. I was so pissed. Here I was ready to take some painkillers and just lay on the couch and now I had to run back to the house to borrow some money from my brother....and then back to Walgreens to pick up my prescription. But it all worked out in the end.

So glad to have this over and done with!

Pretty boring past couple days...
Work was REALLY busy today. Nothing exciting though...just the usual.

Got a good workout in after work. Bad thing about a late workout is that...it's now 1:30 am and I'm all pumped up and ready to go. :P

For all you beer drinkers out there, I found an great new beer. It's New Belgium Brewing Co.s 'Trippel'. It's amazing! It tastes alot like Chimay's 'Blanche' if I remember correctly. Give it a try, you won't be disappointed. Their '1554' is good also.

Anyho...just chilling. Have tomorrow off and then monday I go to the dentist. Am really dreading it...

Out There

Hear the sirens in a distant part of town
Hear the rumble of the freeway dying down
Someone calls me but the answerphone's turned down
I'm not sleeping, but there's sleepers all around

Hear the TV say the future's getting near
Everybody lives between their hope and fear
I can't tell if anyone is sincere
Lock the door and pull the covers up to here

It's dark out there
It's dark out there

Footsteps echoing, outside the door
Tomorrow's paper brings the same news as before
No-one cares about the truth anymore
Now the hurricane is racing to the shore

It's dark out there
It's dark out there

Other people are in dreamland
Other people are asleep
All the bad things in the world are just outside
I'm falling in too deep
I'll try to get some sleep.

-Solar Twins "Out There"

Ah, finally home from work. Today was a pretty easy work day actually. I can't complain.

Actually I take that back. I do have something to complain about. The antibiotics my dentist prescribed me for my tooth is giving me a slight headache and making me irritable. Not cool. Or maybe it was just work. It does have that effect on me sometimes. Heh

Got a new cd in the mail. Solar Twins. Giving it a listen right now and liking it alot! They had a track called 'Rock the Casbah' on the movie Brokedown Palace. Good stuff. Had to order it from a used cd dealer on amazon.com since it's out of print. Why do all the good cd's go out of print while bullshit disc's stay in circullation until the end of time? Sad.

Well it's 4 days till my wisdom teeth go bye bye. It dosn't help my situation that a few guys I work with were telling me about their experience with having wisdom teeth pulled. Now...I can handle pain...I just don't like needles. If I can make it past the injecting of the painkiller I'll be set. Of course then there's the horrible sound of the roots of my teeth tearing as the dentist pulls the tooth out...and the blood running down my throat...fuck I'm not looking forward to Monday. /sigh

Got a couple new cd's in the mail today. Opus III - Guru Mother and Mind Fruit. Good group. They were recommended to me by Amazon.com when I was searching for artists similar to Delerium and Amethystium. So far they're both great disc's.

Had a dentist appointment earlier. Looks like I'm going to have all four of my wisdom teeth yanked next monday. Yikes! One of the teeth is impacted and decaying, which was my primary reason for getting checked out. Good news is that my insurance turns out to be not half as crappy as I thought it was. It will pay for most of the extraction.

The dentist prescribed me antibiotics for some infection in the impacted tooth. I went by Wal-mart and picked it up. While I was waiting on the pharmacist to fill the prescription, I ran by the electronics department to check out the new dvd releases. 'Saw' came out today. I missed it in theaters and heard it was a pretty good movie. I'll have to check it out. :)

I do have a confession to make. I love 'Sex in the City'. They had season one for $24 so I had to buy it; and season two was only $30 and they were down to the last one...so I got that too. /sigh I once told a girl I work with that I loved the show. Her eyes got real big and she said 'Wow, you're the first guy I've ever met that likes it!'. That made me feel real masculine. You all can think whatever you like...I love my 'Sex'!! LOL

Ran by and had lunch at one of my favorite pizza places, Jim's Razorback Pizza. Good food, nice atmosphere and reasonably priced menu! $$

So now I'm just chilling out around the house, listening to music. I really wish this day would last forever. It's so nice outside and I don't want to go back to work tomorrow!!!

Hello world! New to this whole on-line journal thing.

The thought just struck me the other day that since I have such an exciting life, I should share it with the world.

Riiiight LoL

So begins the madness!